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Here is my story, for those who wish to know:

Ever since I was five years old I have heard voices in my head. At that age I thought it was my imaginary friend, but as the years progressed and this imaginary friend did not leave, I realized this was not normal. During this time I weighed a lot, having been fed unhealthy. This voice, Tiffaani, told me I was fat and how ugly I was, so I had to lose weight. In Fifth Grade I saw a documentary about bulimia and thought nothing of the dangers and by sixth grade I had adopted the idea into my mind that what I was doing was just a weird diet.

In seventh grade, when I had become more intelligent, I studied psychology. I learned that I fit the criteria for that of schizophrenic, or at least that of someone with schizophreniform disorder. I also learned what my "strange diet" was doing to my teeth and face. I began eating in mass amounts and gained weight until I hit 155.

The slow realization of my disgusting body hit and I completely stopped eating all together and my parents dismissed this event as hormones. I dropped down to 85 pounds.

I thought I was sickly looking and decided to try and stop my poor eating habits, but this event turned into mass quantities of food being eaten without purging. I gained a massive amount of weight until I hit 175.

I saw how fat I had become and tried to diet, but in the end only switched back to Bulimia and stopped caring what it was doing to me. I dropped to 110. I thought I could stay there, but I was afraid I would keep making myself purge. I tried to stop for a month and gained 30 pounds.

In the past year I have experienced heightened hallucinations and the arrival of another voice, Johnathan, from schizophrenia.

Since then I have fit the criteria for Schizophrenia, ED-NOS (Eating Disorder Not Other Wise Specified), a brief psychotic episode, Major Depressive Disorder (though this is iffy because of schizophrenia), Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, obsessional thoughts, social phobia, and ESMS (Excessive Self-Mutilation Syndrome) and compulsive behavior. The self diagnosis on these disorders in unclear if they are accurate, but having studied psychology to the best of my ability I am positive most of these are true of my mental health.

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